It lives!

^ This post brought to you by vanity (and flat caps)

People have always told me, that you're supposed to have certain moments of clarity in your life, where you realise something so profound that everything changes as a result, and you can never go back to the way things were.

For the most part, I agreed with them. Twice I've felt this way, the first was realising that I am not as ugly as I was made to feel in High School (which lead to its own set of problems... but it was fun). The second was the first time I fell in love. By that I mean LOVE, love. The one that's so strong and all consuming that you have that uncomfortable moment where it dawns on you that every time you've expressed it before, you were wrong. Beyond that I didn't think that there was anything left to "discover". I'm not saying that I didn't/don't have issues, but I'm British, and we already realise that we're pretty much the best*.

I think I just had my third, uhm, thing. I dunno what you're supposed to call these yet.

Today I realised, that the reason that I seem to be making no progress at all, is because I am trying to go in too many directions, when really I can only go in one, maybe two at best (if they're both sort of going the same way). It was more of a slow clap than an avalanche this time around, and its still clapping so bear with me.

I cannot become a Jack-of-all-trades because then I will not be able to achieve everything that I want.

I cannot fall back on just being a pretty bit floating about some rich man's palace doing chores and telling the gardener where I want the chrysanthemums and how nice the jasmine would look draped across the gazebo.

I am probably never going to be famous. ... More than probably. Almost certainly.

I want, to be a games designer and make computer games. I want my own studio. I want to be successful, and to bring imagination and the open end back to the games industry. This is really and truly what I want, and its been a running theme through my entire life although I never really took that much notice of it.

I was always that child who made games for everyone to play. I was always at the centre of a group of people who wanted to join the worlds I was spinning, even though I had very few true friends, I was always welcome because I could make the dull interesting. All my life so far I have been inventing games.

And that's exactly what I want to do for the rest of it. I want to make things that people will enjoy playing, I want to make things that you can settle yourself into as deeply as you want, I want to create rich game worlds that you can sink into at the end of a long day. I want to make things that relieve stress, and calm even the more ornery of domestic beasts. I don't want to do this with guns and missiles and controversy. I want to do this the way that I've always done things. By listening, and talking, and creating something warm.

Although...

That's quite a mountain, and I'm still way out there on the plains. I'm glad to have realised finally what I really want out of life, but its a long way and a lot of work left to do, and I am coming close to the line for at least the first part of it. So its still a slow clap. Right in the awkward stage where there's still just one jock and his loser friend making all the noise and everything else is silence.

I'll let you decide out of everyone I know, who is the jock and who is the loser. Right now I need to open Gimp and get a few MT pages done!

- SR

*Sarcasm.

DRAWINGS?!

Maaaaan... I am trying not to overface myself with work, but I just can't stop drawing characters related to Felicity Jone. These two beauties are Lord Erian Mox and the Regent of Rue, Cineraria Alium (Both written by two awesome women over at Rue). I really have to concentrate on getting the proportions for the bodies right, but I have faces pretty much like, down. Unless you want me to draw them from some other angle, in which case it will take me about eight hours.

Anyway. I want to try doing at least a page a week for this comic, and since I am lazy and really don't understand why my nice shiny new program isn't working, I am going to be drawing in MS Paint. Oh yes. I said it.

So stay tuned for more craptastic quality.

Trilingial Time:
- I should be doing other things.
- Que debería estar haciendo otras cosas.
- Watashi wa ta no koto o yatte iru hitsuyō ga arimasu (私は他の事をやっている必要があります)

- SR

Trilingual

Threeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee laaaaaaaaaaaanguages! It will happen. It will happen right here. Damn it. Okay so my spanish is rusty and my grasp of Japanese falls short of basic (though now when the subtitles aren't lined up properly I can ignore them and still understand the basic gist of what is going on, or who is talking about who) but I will start writing this more and doing it in different languages.

Or something.

Okay, trilingual party starter:
So after the breakup I had one initial crush almost immediately that fizzled out and now I have a whole lot of nothing. By the way I am totally running this through a translater. So theres this guy who is kind of cute and stuff and I -want- to like him like him but I just can't foster any feelings right now, I think I must still be going through the processes of the split or something. Aarrgh why can't he and the crush guy just call back in four years or something. Do Time Machines exist yet? I could do with one of those.

Oh and I have a job lined up for the end of the year, its all pretty exciting!

ES
Así que después de la ruptura que había un aplastamiento inicial casi inmediatamente que fracasó y ahora tengo un montón de nada. Por cierto estoy totalmente de ejecutar este a través de un traductor. Así que hay un tipo que es la clase de lindo y esas cosas y yo quiero lo que le gusta como él, pero yo simplemente no puede promover ningún sentimiento en este momento, creo que todavía debe estar pasando por los procesos de la división o algo así. ¿Por qué no puede él y el chico acaba de aplastar a devolver la llamada en cuatro años o algo así. No existe todavía máquinas del tiempo? Que podría hacer con uno de ellos.

Ah, y tengo un trabajo alineado para el final del año, su todo muy emocionante!

NH
Dakara watashi wa sugu ni sonouchi shissoku shi, ima wa nani mo ariamatte iru 1tsu no saisho no kurasshu shite ita gārufurendo to wakareta nochi. Watashi wa kanzen ni tsūyaku o kaishite kore o jikkō shite iru hōhō de. Desukara, ichi-shu no kawaii mono to watashi wa gatta kare no yōna kare o suki ni ndakedo, ima wa subete no kanjō o sodateru koto ga dekinai, watashi wa mada bunkatsu ka nani ka no purosesu o tsūka suru hitsuyō ga arimasu to omou nodesu kono otoko wadesu. Naze kare wa, tokimeki no otoko ga modotta bakari no 4-nenkan nani ka de yobidasu koto wa dekimasen. Dotaimumashin wa mada sonzai shite? Watashi wa ichi-nin to dekiru. Ā, watashi ga shigoto o kotoshi-matsu made ni, sono subete hijō ni ekisaitinguna narande iru!

Maybe it would help if I actually installed the japanese language pack on this computer.

Line in the Sand

Soooooo... where have I been? Man. I am not even sure. I always let my projects suffer everytime I go through some sort of emotional conflict, and its about time I grew out of that.

Blazes and I broke up, after lots of issues mainly revolving about the fact that he freaks out and acts like a dick sometimes. I can say that because even when I was trying to break into comics, he never read this blog even once. Meh. Maybe that should have been a sign? You know. The total lack of interest thing. Or something.

Anyway, despite the breakup I am not actually all that bitter, but all the stuff that happened before it is why everything stopped updating. It started with the comics, and then spread through everything and now... well Its not a problem anymore.

However, I can't just pick up where I left off with all of the things I was doing, because to be honest, I have a pretty crap methodology and the threads are much harder to trace than you would think given the final product. Anyway, heres my plan reguarding the the comics.

My Thingie: I tried to take this in too many directions when I should have just kept it as I intended it, just a cute little journal to capture the funny things that happen sometimes and maybe ask a few serious questions about stuff. I felt pressured to make it into more of a thing after a huge fight about money. My Thingie will go back to being cute stories that happen, three times a week. With maybe some topical content but nothing live action. I will be making lots of these in advance and posting them up.

Felicity Jone: I got really into the planning stages and was let down by my crash-prone image editor. I know they say a poor workman blames his tools, but even Michealangelo would have given up on David if his hammer and chisel kept deleting all his work every time his assistant popped up to see if he had any viruses. I want to tell the story as I have spent a lot of time on it, and will be working on pages using a new editor which is kinda laggy sometimes but thats probably just because I am doing too much on my computer. I do not know when I will be able to start uploading FJ comics, but it probably wont be on Drunk Duck.

Nuffink Doin: Another casualty of the money argument, but also I found it hard to draw and write about people who had lives when I was under pressure not to have one at all. So chah. I will redraw and revive Nuffink Doin and start posting comics up on Drunk Duck after I have revived My Thingie.

Other Stuff: I am part of the Manga Team for my gaming guild, we will be producing comics based on our characters from various games and posting them up online someplace. I will be the main penciller and organiser, but it wont distract me from my other comics.

Exercise is Really Boring: I will continue with my workout diary from day 1 attempt 2 starting soon. I really didn't feel like working out when we were arguing all the time, so I ate chocolate and cakes instead and now I am paying the unhealthy-out-of-breath price. Also we got a puppy. They like to try and eat you when you use a skipping rope or do pressups.

Contextualise Meh: My studies have been suffering but that will not continue! Contextualise Meh will be updated at a rate of one per day starting soon, and I will start sending off a bajillion and one emails to all of the people I feature in the blog, and informing you of any replies.

My Website: Nooooooooooooot gonna happen this year. At least not in this capacity.

And Elsewhere: I am persuing a few options for earning muhlah, and whilst prostitution isn't one of them, its something similar. I will be cagy about it until I know if I can do it or not, but yeah, expect youtube videos and stuff when I start that one.

If you're wondering how I will achieve all this... well I waste a loooot of time doing stupid stuff that just gets me depressed anyway, so this should distract me nicely. Luff and Stuff - Ree aka SR.

I'm doing several things.

I have several things going on right now.

There are daily updates and linkage over here which should hopefully be entertaining, its entertaining me anyway so -shrug-

I am also found stalking the Tensess server of this game with regularity.

And I can always be found on this game on the Luxplena server around the weekends.

Also my guild's forum is doing stuff. (PM Essar if you register so the person I got adminning doesn't delete you. He has way too much free time and trigger happy finger)

And I am continuing to study.

And I am doing housework and cooking a lot, which is turning into quite a varied collection of recipies which I could post but then I'd have to work out the precise measures of all the ingredients, and usually I am like "just chuck it all in the pan and see what happens". Sa na. Oh and apparently at some point I became a counceller to my brother's friends. I am hoping they forget that I exist soon so I can go back to living peacefully.

Or at least free of prep high school drama.

eff eff ess!

Though I have totally neglected My Thingie and the other comics I used to draw, I will be making time for them soon when I can actually figure out where all the time in the day manages to dissapear off to. One moment I am playing pokemon whilst eating breakfast, and the next moment its eleven pm and I am talking to a gothic geordie boy on the telephone. This time lapse has got to stop.

Though at least I am feeling much better about things.

Ja ne!

- SRQ

Ohhiso!

I got very distracted with life and stuff and had to call a haitus on MY THINGIE (I hate those) but its okay because I'm not going to be an illustrator anymore so I don't have to worry about making a name for myself doing that.

So yeah I kinda promised that I would keep people updated but I totally haven't and I don't know why I promised that given that I don't generally read these kinds of blogs. There's my I quota for today. You're welcome. Ahh man five minutes ago this was totally all happening but now that the computer is infront of me the words have all dissapated. Rubbish.

Btw Heather is still Bein a Wizzard. You should check it out.

Guns, Bells and Whistles

I'm back! Did you miss me?

Okay so I’ve been working on this for a while and it’s the reason that my posting has been so quite over here. On the 24^th of June, the first My Thingie of the new My Thingie was posted on Drunk Duck. This will be the start of the archive for my website (when I eventually get it) and it will also be the FIRST BOOK. The story will follow me from the last two years of High School (briefly) all the way through to my very sudden bumrush though the doors of Art School.

There will be japes, jinxes and also lots of jokes about bottoms. Oh and of course, the entire reason behind why I want a t-shirt that says “its all about my vagina”.

You can read it by clicking here for the Drunk Duck archive.

I have also submitted My Thingie to several search engines, and the traffic has increased nicely, I am now on my way to actually getting a website. I have decided on a URL, and if it isn’t available when I can afford it, I am actually going to eat someone. And not in the fun way. I’m talking full on, knife and fork, inna pie, Hannibal lector shiz.

You know it.

Man I really need to get writing on the scripts for My Thingie.

In other news:

Felicity Jone will be delayed until after the first 200 pages of My Thingie are done.

Nuffink Doin will continue to be sporadic for the full length of its 1000 pages.

Protanking has been delayed until the first 200 pages of My Thingie are done.

Ask Artery is looking for your advice! Email to ask.artery@googlemail.com

Video for your Pleasure:

Linkage for this post:

All About My Vagina

My Thingie

Felicity Jone

Nuffink Doin

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WebcomicsZ

I posted this before I gave it a title.

ZOMG I drew blazes in a tag O_O Truly this is the intimacy that I have craved all my life. Anyway!

I am updating step-by-step pages over at My Thingie all week this week, also I may or may have not mentioned that said comic is also now on daily updates due to the fact that I need to push my traffic up just a smidgeon more.

It is actually working quite well.

Also I had to stop reading Heather's blog temporarily as the strength of her observational artwork is truly depressing. I will never be able to draw like that purely and simply because my concentration span is way too short.

My sex drive is so high that concentrating for more than an hour on anything other than sex is really taxing. Mah guys will know what I mean ^_~.

...

Okay maybe not.

O¬O

Anyway!

Have sum videoh:




At first he was saying "my Jescules" and I was like WOAH Frez, this is youtube. But I totally didn't stop watching.

Ree-Turn?

So its been about a century since I updated here, and thats mostly because I've been very unwell. (full saga avaliable over at My Thingie).

I delayed the launch of Felicity Jone until I know what I am doing, and I have procrastinated on sorting out my bank details for reasons unknown, and so far have earned a grand total of diddley squat from these comics. HOWEVER, there is light at the end of the proverbial tunnel, and I may have some good news soon.

Being featured really helped ^^ my hits shot up... but have since come back down, however I now have 44 confirmed favouriters and totally faithful readers at Drunk Duck, for which I am insanely greatful. I am not going to do the usual artist's plea for referrals to friends, but you know, it wouldn't hurt.

Anyway, next weeks' comics are going to be MMO themed, and I promise you that the quality will be much better than seen here >

In the meantime heres something funny:


If I was hetero I'd totally marry her. But she'd probably stab me in my sleep.

Buh?!

My Thingie just got Featured over at Drunk Duck.

Also, I have had some upthebutt exams today so I am not feeling so good. Some sort of abdominal stuff is happening on my insides, and whilst personally I am thinking that a good colonic will do the trick, my doctor wants to stick me full of pins.

I share this with you, only because I am forbidden from EVER talking to Blazes about poop. Ever.

So yeah...

I feel all recognised and stuff and kinda positive about things again!

Ossum.

Lush.

Et-cetera.

I am tired. I shall go and ingest more medicines then probably sleeps. Victory dance on my behalf, k?

- Ree

B LEH

I have not been practicing my drawing skills every day. I have not done any life drawing since I left college, because my model is my boyfriend and I keep having sex with him when he is naked: not drawing.

However there is a reason for this.

I have been kicked back so many times in the last year that I now have no idea where I am going, what I am doing, or how I am going to get there. All my motivation has vanished, most recently due to being kicked by an advertiser and then again by some listings and then again by the banks and just BLEH. The real world sucks, why did I want to be a part of this so badly?

I mean aside from the fact that I actually cannot stand the "Student Lifestyle". Heather and Sophie were awesome in college, serious props to my two favourite ladies, Sam the Duke was pretty awesome too... but they were the only people there that I could stand for more than a minute.

Most of the people I know that have gone to university I no longer talk to because I get sick of hearing about how much they drank or who they want to do or why they are unable to hold a relationship or what they want to do in their gap year. I just. Don't. Care.

That aside.

I just need a break man, you know?

Just ONE leg up.

Or maybe even a toe up.

Tch.

Anyway. Felicity Jone will update on the eleventh though I haven't even started drawing the pages that I am supposed to yet, so its going to be a struggle for the first few months. I need to redo one of the pages for My Thingie next week as its dirrrteh and needs a cleanup, also I have not done much work on Nuffink Doin because I have too much work to do on the others: but would rather waste time. Welcome to my life.

Its hilarious is it not?

Well I find it funny - xoxox Ree

Geeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

I've decided to do some more preparation work before I start drawing the bulk of Felicity Jone has Ruined My Life. Mostly this includes lots of life drawing, but I am also going to be doing a huge number of worldsetting illustrations. Everything from clothing to magic and from buildings to critturs has to be drawn out before I draw it in the comic. This is a lot of work but I will be able to get through it well before I can even SMELL April appoaching.

That said, this week is the week I sort out my finances. Starting with my bank, then paypal, then a second attempt at Project Wonderful and as an additional THEN a jaunt with Google Ads. During this I am also going to be trying to increase hits on all my stuff, and try not to curl up into a ball and die.

Also today an expert said that the recession is likely to last ten years. I would like very much for that man to be shot right in the face.

On a related topic, I am about to go and waste an irresponsible amount of time playing computer games. Tatafahnao - Ree

PAGES

FJ is now massively behind on pages and MY THINGIE's buffer is so thin its barely even a smear. AGG. How did this happen, you may ask, well... I have no idea. I have been drawing, but also procrastinating on it, because other things were more important. Plus when I did get time to draw, that little adventure in retail banking completely took the wind out of my sails.

Still, I am working today and although it is not as fast or as thorough as I had hoped it would be by this stage, its still work. I think I will be able to get most of the launch pages up in time for tomorrow, but I am having to push actual updates back by about a month, which really makes me feel sick to the stomach but ah well.

The reasons and goings on in my life that lead to this will be fully documented in MY THINGIE over the next few weeks.

Annyhu.

I am going back to drawding nao. Luff and stuff - Ree

FINALLY

I have finally started working on pages for FJ again and MAN it feels so good.

I have decided to work in three steps. Step one is the roughwork straight from the script, step two is the neat lineart and framing, then step three is the final linework and shading. At step two the pages are readable enough to go online, which is when I shrink them and put them up so I can meet my upload dates.

When I have uploaded a year's worth of pages, then I will start working back over them and getting them up to a higher standard for print. Its a lengthy process but at least it works. I just found that one of the pages from my script, a short passage of text not even a paragraph long just translated into SEVEN pages worth of comic strippery. Theres a lot of scenery work in the first ten pages, and I am not really happy with them yet, but if I can finish them to a high standard with the print lineart then I think they will be stunning.

I have added some more links to the My Thingie Links Page. In closing have a RETRO COMIC from three months before I started ART SCHOOL.

Doodles was just that, doodlins, which I don't really count as drawing as there isn't really any improvement over the course of it, and it wasn't to express anything through artwork. It was just a meme passed back and forth between me and some friends.

If I can find someone who still has some of them I will dig them out and put them up somewhere, maybe.

EXTRAS!

Wootwoot! Extras and stuff now avaliable over on Felicity Jone has Ruined My Life. Well AN extra anyway, the rest of those files will be worked on and uploaded over the next few days. I really need to get started on the pages for the launch, so far I am still not even done with page 2, so I really need to get a move on.

You can start at the beginning of FJHRML here.

I also need to get a whole buncha pages done for MY THINGIE which is almost at the end of the buffer. Why am I procrastinating? I have no idea. At least I don't have any scripts to write, as they are all done and dusted.

Oh, and because I didn't mention it. Blazes came to stay for the weekend and we had gudd times and he alleviated some of the emo that I had been suffering from in the past two weeks. Which was good. I miss him already though. Cusses to falling in love with a guy too far aways T_T. Then again, I don't really like the guys in this area, so it was bound to happen eventually o.o.

I am off to draw'd nao. Will spam with updates later, kay? xx - Ree

A WHOLE YEAR

It was evening. Their eyes met across the short space. Surveying his guest with eyes like emeralds, soaking in the contrast between the electric tones and the formal scenery. Blaze, he was called and Blaze he was. Everything about him spoke of unchecked fire; of flames; of passionate desire. He smiled at his guest, and remarked with calculated tones "I like your tiger... is it new?"
Blaze nodded in assent "Its f'ckin lush, babes"
The electric blue kitten, dull behind the eyes merly flicked its tail. It too did not belong here, but was more than welcome.
"So what prompted you to message me?" The host remarked, offhanded,
"Saw ur piks on ur page"
"Oh?" He smiled
"Yeah, you're well fit, babes"
"I'm well taken, too"
"Ahh well. I can wait..."
The host laughed, charmed by the certainty of his guest's manner. This was the start of something else...

Okay so admittedly I could have just said "We met on IMVU when it was still full of VIRUS" but that would have been boring! When I was still with my ex, Blazes sought me out, and began the slow process (in his words) of 'winning me over'. At the time I was bottle blonde, tanned and lovelorn, in a relationship with someone who would never feel the same way about me as I did about him (and prooved it several months later). He could have had me then, but he waited until I was more... receptive.

A year and a month later, I was feeling down and bloo and he said "Call me". At first he thought I would be a fling, but even so he spent a month taking my calls each night at ten and listening to what I had to say, talking back and discussing anything and everything that was on his mind. He helped me to heal after a rough year and an even rougher breakup, and I did something he didn't expect.

He came down to meet me.

He asked me out.

After 3 hours, I became much more than just a fling.

Blazes helped me to recover myself, and I unknowingly helped him to learn to love.

He is my most important person.

We didn't have much of a courtship, due largely to the fact that even after a year of healing I still have agrophobia triggered by several violent attacks on the way to and from my house. Chavs, are really not my favourite people. But still I tried my best to make what we were building as romantic as possible.

Sorta.

...

We watched a LOT of Anime.
It started with PRINCESS PRINCESS
Then Gravitation
Then Azumanga DIOH
Theeeen Ouran Host Club
Then Rosario to Banpia
Then Vampire Kishi
...
Also HELL GIRL

Mostly we were snuggled in the dark, and sometimes we didn't see all the episodes. Mostly cos I was playing with his funstick.

Mrrmm hehehe. We also watched a lot of movies, some scary and some fabulous. Oh and he managed to get me singing about putting people into pies (we like to duet... hes LOVETT XD) spent hours talking into many tomorrows, and watching SATC reruns on Paramount. He has discovered ways to make me (NSFW>) feel good that no-one else ever has, and is the only one who has ever really EVER made me want them every minute of the day (Sirriously sometimes its like I am on FIRE).

My Blazes... I love you with all my heart.

I really truly do want to spend the rest of my life with you.

- From your baby Ree x-0-x-0-x-0-x-0-x

(PS You are going to spend your time here HORIZONTAL... unless you want to try other positions)

Because I'm sure someone other than my grandad cares...

...

#139 in Comic Strip #535 Overall

Oh yeah. Page 7 in the catagory browse. Schweet. I am probably going to repeat these pointless STAT posts with the Felicity Jone comic... just a heads up. By probably I mean definately.

In other news: I still haven't finished the first page of FJ T_T I am workin on it but its taking longer than I aspected and now I am all nervous and stuff but also still totally excited and its a really wierd conflict and its leading to hyperactivity which would be okay but Blazes is getting sick of me bounding off the walls.

Hmm.

Ah well.

I am definately going to finish it today, but I have hella loads of housework to do. Cusses.

Haha, my boyfriend:

The eternal romantic. I texted him summit saucy to keep him tickin over till lator (a photo you will NEVER see and an offer to have me for lunch) and he texted back werd fo werd:
"Very tempting but sushi will have to do honey Hehe x x"
XD
Oh yeah. I must be the luckiest man alive. Srysly.
Hahaha.

I luffs him though.

In other news, I've fallen into a hole of FROUFROU and someone greased the sides. Not complaining though, its ver' relaxin.


OH and incase you were wondering DCS got back to me, so I will post the linkage to the fanards if they get posted on the WIRES 2 site. Which was ossum. Oh and MY THINGIE got sum more ranks see:

#176 in Comic Strip #671 Overall

Its annoying that I'm hovering round the #170s, but #671 is the lowest its ever been. Which is good news bears, specially since I am using this comic to inform how I approach the next one. My first graphic novel is now all written and doubled over all the way up to CHAPTER 2, so I am going to start drawing once I finish with the character pages and periphery extras I need for the before bit on the comic. Yeah? Yeah. Lush. Anyway, heres another FrouFrou for your troubles.

- Ree

GLEE!

22:41 - 09th February 2009
My Thingie just got into the top 1000 on DRUNKDUCK.

DrunkDuck Rank: #248 in Comic Strip #950 Overall

I know its still not anywhere near as impressive as top 100... but I am still super happy with that ^_^

Plus 248 is the highest ranking I've had in the Strips Catagory for a while. This has given me the drive to put more work into the humour and aim for at least the #500 spot overall and top #100 in strips! *fireineyes*.

Yeah, probably.

Hello!

My name is S.R.Q, mostly known as Ree and sometimes called other things more colourful. I am trying my best to become an author, both of graphic novels and the regular sort. This is my blog! I shall post about things that amuse me, and things that are informative, and things that make me smile, and things that are other things but not quite. Yeah?

I am not sure.

Anyway, this is my first post.

Here are some links to my other stuff online:
My Thingie, Nuffink Doin, My Deviant Art, My Myspace

Sorted.